An Update on Black & White Photo

It's been almost 2 years since it's been revealed to me about my mother's history and how
much it connects to mine and how I can live from here.

I still grieve. We haven't talked about it since that day. I think it just hurts
her so much. There's so much to put a bandage on. As for me, I don't know
if I have developed a hate for a her family but i still grieve quietly. I know deep
down I have some things to resolve with her.

On top of all of this, I think I'm loosing touch for his attention.

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